Sunday, July 21, 2013

July 21, 2013

More big changes for us. Found out a couple of months ago that my older daughter, who just turned 19 is pregnant. She has been with her boyfriend for about 4 years and while this was not part of their current plan everyone is happy all around. They cam down for a visit last month and have decided to move down here. So we rented a bigger house with room for them and their two dogs and next weekend when we go to Idaho for my 20 year reunion we will be bringing them back to Oregon with us. So excited to have them around and a grandbaby (a girl by the way) on the way.

I am on day two of the 5 day pouch test diet to reset my pouch as I was slipping back in to all my bad habits and eating carbs before anything else. Lost one pound yesterday and am at 160.6 today. Jay is down to 270 which is awesome for him. We may not be where we want to be or keeping up as well as we had hoped but we are both still loosing and living a much healthier life then we were a few years ago. I am hoping with this 5 day pouch test I will make it past my lowest weight since surgery which was about 157.

Well off to clean the house and get rid for vacation in 4 days.

Monday, June 17, 2013

June 17, 2013

So much has happened since my last post. Jay, Erea, and I sold the RV and rented a cute little house in Grants Pass. We really love being in a house again and it has a big back yard that is fenced for the dog and the kid. I also changed jobs at Wal-mart and am now working in the HR area as a training coordinator. I enjoy the job and the people alot. Still hoping to get back to law enforcement someday but I am patient. My lovely 18 year old daughter is pregnant and due in December so I am anxiously awaiting that. I am trying to convince her to move here from Idaho but no luck yet. I do not feel old enough to have a grandchild but that is okay I am still excited.

As far as my weight loss goes I have not been doing great with exercise, diet, or getting my water in. Today I am trying to get back on track. I weighed in at 163 today. I am going to try and do 3 Biggest Loser workouts a week on the Wii and hope to make it to the gym for Zumba Toning twice a week. I will be headed to my 20 year class reunion in about 5 weeks so I am hoping to get to about 155 before I go. I just let everything else get to me and don't focus on what I need enough. I have started over a million times and will just keep starting over until I get it right.

So to go with my weigh in today I also took some more pictures. Glad I did because looking back at my old pictures made me feel a ton better.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

V Day 2013

February 14, 2013 Happy V Day!

How am I feeling today. Well I am down to 165 which is good. Jay is down to 288 and has lost another 1 1/2 inch off his waist. Watching him feel better and work hard helps to motivate me and makes me work even harder. We will beat this together!!!

I am thankful for my family and friends today and glad to have a home and a job. I need to remind myself that no one is judging me but me and I am harsher then anyone else. I need to let up on myself and those I love a little and enjoy every day that I have.

I made it through my entire work out at the gym today just by reminding myself that I can do it. I got my homework down on time (not always easy for me) and paid the bills. When I met with the counselor yesterday she gave me some tips to help me stop worrying so much. One was to set a time for worrying and not let it be in my head all the time. So last night when I laid down and my head wouldn't stop I just kept telling myself that it was not the time and I would worry about those things tomorrow. It must have worked because I slept pretty good and today the worries don't seem so bad.

One day at a time. One pound at a time. One worry at a time. That is all we can do.


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

New Year, New Challenges

February 13, 2013

It has now been 2 years and 3 months since my weight loss surgery. As of today my weight is 167. I never made it to my goal and have slowly started gaining weight. I also started training to jog my first 5k about 5 weeks ago. I thought if I followed the training plan I would be able to do it no problem, but again my body has reminded me that it takes hard work and pushing no matter how much you weigh. I have been very stressed out and frustrated lately and that has shown in my eating habits and weight gain. I decided it is time to change my mental health now that my physical is somewhat under control.

I have never been good and taking care of myself or my feelings and always put my effort into taking care of everyone else. When I lost my father in 2007 and then my mother in 2009 I never fully dealt with it. I then lost my job that was the focus of my life in 2011 and never dealt with that either. Time to change!!!!!!

Yesterday I started counseling for about the millionth time in my life. The difference is this time I plan to keep going until I actually deal with some of my crap. I have also started taking an anti-anxiety/anti-depressant to help with my anxiety and hopefully eating. The counselor suggested I start journaling my feelings because I tend to not talk about them but my first thought was to go back to this blog that helped me so much through my weight loss and again share my journey with others. Knowing that other people are listening and may find one little piece of information that will help them motivates me to do better.

So from this day forward this blog will follow my getting to my goal weight, training for my 5k in April, and getting my mind in line with my body. I plan on sharing my feelings as honestly as I can and finding my mo0tivation again. Thanks for listening.