June 17, 2013

So much has happened since my last post. Jay, Erea, and I sold the RV and rented a cute little house in Grants Pass. We really love being in a house again and it has a big back yard that is fenced for the dog and the kid. I also changed jobs at Wal-mart and am now working in the HR area as a training coordinator. I enjoy the job and the people alot. Still hoping to get back to law enforcement someday but I am patient. My lovely 18 year old daughter is pregnant and due in December so I am anxiously awaiting that. I am trying to convince her to move here from Idaho but no luck yet. I do not feel old enough to have a grandchild but that is okay I am still excited.

As far as my weight loss goes I have not been doing great with exercise, diet, or getting my water in. Today I am trying to get back on track. I weighed in at 163 today. I am going to try and do 3 Biggest Loser workouts a week on the Wii and hope to make it to the gym for Zumba Toning twice a week. I will be headed to my 20 year class reunion in about 5 weeks so I am hoping to get to about 155 before I go. I just let everything else get to me and don't focus on what I need enough. I have started over a million times and will just keep starting over until I get it right.

So to go with my weigh in today I also took some more pictures. Glad I did because looking back at my old pictures made me feel a ton better.

V Day 2013

February 14, 2013 Happy V Day!

How am I feeling today. Well I am down to 165 which is good. Jay is down to 288 and has lost another 1 1/2 inch off his waist. Watching him feel better and work hard helps to motivate me and makes me work even harder. We will beat this together!!!

I am thankful for my family and friends today and glad to have a home and a job. I need to remind myself that no one is judging me but me and I am harsher then anyone else. I need to let up on myself and those I love a little and enjoy every day that I have.

I made it through my entire work out at the gym today just by reminding myself that I can do it. I got my homework down on time (not always easy for me) and paid the bills. When I met with the counselor yesterday she gave me some tips to help me stop worrying so much. One was to set a time for worrying and not let it be in my head all the time. So last night when I laid down and my head wouldn't stop I just kept telling myself that it was not the time and I would worry about those things tomorrow. It must have worked because I slept pretty good and today the worries don't seem so bad.

One day at a time. One pound at a time. One worry at a time. That is all we can do.

Tia

New Year, New Challenges

February 13, 2013

It has now been 2 years and 3 months since my weight loss surgery. As of today my weight is 167. I never made it to my goal and have slowly started gaining weight. I also started training to jog my first 5k about 5 weeks ago. I thought if I followed the training plan I would be able to do it no problem, but again my body has reminded me that it takes hard work and pushing no matter how much you weigh. I have been very stressed out and frustrated lately and that has shown in my eating habits and weight gain. I decided it is time to change my mental health now that my physical is somewhat under control.

I have never been good and taking care of myself or my feelings and always put my effort into taking care of everyone else. When I lost my father in 2007 and then my mother in 2009 I never fully dealt with it. I then lost my job that was the focus of my life in 2011 and never dealt with that either. Time to change!!!!!!

Yesterday I started counseling for about the millionth time in my life. The difference is this time I plan to keep going until I actually deal with some of my crap. I have also started taking an anti-anxiety/anti-depressant to help with my anxiety and hopefully eating. The counselor suggested I start journaling my feelings because I tend to not talk about them but my first thought was to go back to this blog that helped me so much through my weight loss and again share my journey with others. Knowing that other people are listening and may find one little piece of information that will help them motivates me to do better.

So from this day forward this blog will follow my getting to my goal weight, training for my 5k in April, and getting my mind in line with my body. I plan on sharing my feelings as honestly as I can and finding my mo0tivation again. Thanks for listening.

Tia

One Year Out and Loving It

So today it has officially been one year since my weight loss surgery. The last year has been a challenge and I have been through a lot of changes, some related to my surgery and some not, but I am still here and stronger than ever. I haven't been losing much lately. I think I am eating more in a maintenance way then losing and I would like to get back to losing. I am not at goal yet but have been rethinking my goal as I am happy with my size right now and just want to focus on toning. I am still considered overweight by BMI standards but if I lose the 16 pounds needed to get to overweight I think it may be too much.

So here are my stats after a year:

                        Start                Today              Difference

Weight             264                  156.8               107.2

BMI                46.1                 27.54               18.6
Waist               47.5                 35                    12.5
Neck                15.5                 13.3                 2
Bicep               17                    12                    5 Each
Forearm           12                    9.5                   2.5 Each
Chest               48                    39.5                 8.5
Hip                  55                    38.5                 16.5
Thigh               30                    21                    9 Each
Calf                 20                    15.5                 4.5 Each

So total I lost 81.5 inches off my body which is over 6 ½ feet. My BMI went from Extremely Morbidly Obese to Overweight.

Roller Derby!!!

So with all the changes to my body I am finding all these new things that I want to do. My newest hobby is Roller Derby. I have only been to one practice and need lots of work before I can actually play on a team but it is a lot of fun and great exercise. Last night my sister, who I have also roped into this endeavor, and I went and watch the double header in Coeur d' Alene. It was so much fun. Jay was not completely behind my decision to join until he watched last night. Now he understands!!!!!

So as of today I am 179.5. Don't even remember the last time I was in the 170's. Feels good and I am starting to feel the muscle tone from all the exercise I am doing. One downside to all the weight loss is apparently no one noticed how short I was before cause all I here now is I am so little or I look like I am shrinking. I have always been 5'3" but I acted bigger before I guess. My Aunt Theresa told me yesterday my aura must be shrinking lol. I think I just acted like I was bigger before to try and make up for my weight.

1st practice. Not sure what the look on my face is about.

On my way to watch roller derby. Yep I'm rocking a faux hawk!

Love my shoes!!!

6 Month Surgery Anniversary, 05/15/2011

Wow. As of yesterday it has been 6 months since I traveled to Mexico to have weight loss surgery. What an amazing journey it has been so far. Thought I would post my stats and some before and after pictures that show some of the amazing transformations I have undergone. Besides the physical changes I have so much more confidence in myself and am starting to feel strong again. I have more energy and actually feel excited about the possibilities in my future. Gastric Sleeve surgery was the best decision I ever made for myself.

Weight – down 78.8 pounds

BMI down 13.3 pounds

Waist down 10.5 inches

Neck down 1.5 inches

Bicep down 3.5 inches each

Forearm down 1.5 inches each

Chest down 6 inches

Hips down 12 inches

Thighs down 6.5 inches each

Calves down 3.75 inches each

Pant size 18/20W to a 12.

Shirt size 2xl to M/L.

Shoes down from 8 ½ wide to 8 regular.

 

05/01/2011

The last two weeks I have been trying to break the 190 barrier. Today I finally hit 189.2. So excited and feel like I am getting closer and closer to my goal. The last time I remember being truly comfortable with my size I was 180, so looking forward to that. I also realized today that in the last 5 weeks I have lost 10 pounds and that is so amazing. Later this month it will have been 6 months since my surgery and I can't believe how much has happened since then.

Though sometimes it is hard having this surgery is still the best decision I ever made for myself.